jumping the gun?

John, your song was "I Only Have Eyes For You" - over.

Dudley, your song was "Don't Stop Believin'" by Journey - over.

Brian, your song was "In The Waiting Line" by Zero 7 - over.

And now, David, your song will be "1, 2, 3, 4" by the Plain White T's.

I'm fearing that I'm jumping the gun again.  What else is new?  I only know one speed - fast.  Except this time I'm not going to physically move fast.  I did my promiscuity deal and paid the price, fuck me to make someone else pay for my dirty deeds.  I will get tested and get my results before I open that part of my world to him.

WOW.  Could we really be a Craigslist success story?

First date was on Sunday - 9 hours long.  Putt putt, arcade games, late lunch at BJ's Brewhouse, Suns basketball game, and Amazing Race finale.  Best part?  He texted me the minute I walked in the door, and we continued to talk that way til I went to bed.  He is not a believer in the 3-day rule.  The next day?  We exchange emails after I get home.  56 emails to be exact.

Second date was tonight - watch him play softball with his Navy fleet, fish tacos at PB Bar and Grill, Deathproof movie.   Took us awhile to find a parking spot in PB.  Halfway walking to Fred's (original dining location), he gets my hand out of my coat pocket and holds it.  He says he is a touchy-feely guy, physically and emotionally.  Asks if I like to hold hands - ABSOLUTELY!  Continues to hold my hand everywhere we walk.  After PBB&G, we got for a short walk on the boardwalk and stop to watch the ocean swells and listen.  We are holding each other, and I forget what we said, but then we kissed.  And kissed and kissed.  I got overwhelmed with happiness so I bury my smile into his chest.  Sounds like it came out of a romance novel, but tis all a true story.  He fixed my TV when we got back to my place (TV remote wasn't working, now I can use the PS3 again!).  The whole movie we sit close, and eventually I end up in his arms after a potty break.  He is getting tired, we both are, and I inquire, but he is happy to just be here.  It is about 1 a.m. when he leaves, but before so, asks if he can see me tomorrow.  :)  He texts me when he gets home "...you are still amazing and I can't wait until tomorrow."

Is this really happening?  Or am I dreaming?  

At one point during the movie, I got a little sad feeling - this could be the last time I am single (for some time, anyway).  But then I am happy that this person and I crossed paths at the right moment.  And that he stood out and that even though at first the communication exchanges were random, he still persisted.  That stuck out to me, therefore giving him a chance.  I'm really glad I had a good feeling about meeting him the first time.

I was tired when he left almost an hour ago, yet I'm still awake.  It's like I don't want this day to end, these feelings to settle.  

Get your head outta the clouds.  And get it on the pillow and shut your eyes.  Tomorrow is a brand new day...