turned tables
So now that I've actually realized that sustaining a relationship with Beau is impossible, at least, until one of us is out of the store, I've backed off a lot from him. We would just have to live with being friends. So I stopped texting as much and bugging him as much. I wanted him to come to me if he wanted to be with me.
So he asked why I was so quiet and short with him, etc. I guess my retractiveness came off as bitter or anger with him? Anyways, that cleared up, and now that I backed off so much it in turn made him MORE attracted to me.
He helped me move, and ended up spending the night like three nights in a row. That kinda annoyed me but I didn't want to say otherwise - I mean, I had stuff to do! Him hanging around makes Kim counterproductive.
So he sent me a text last night saying he missed me, and if he could take me out Friday or Saturday. I reminded him my folks were in town. Then he said we could go out at another time, which I simply agreed. I had been busy at work and didn't want to spend a bulk of my time whipping out my phone, so he accused me of not feeling the way he did, and if not, wanted me to tell him. I couldn't believe his attitude so I told him I was busy and at work, and that he needs to relax - we are chill and have a good time together. "I'm being dumb, I'm sorry. Lately I've felt a lot more than I used to for you and that's why I've been so whiny and lame. It isn't anything you've done." I wasn't able to text him back until after work, and asked why he was feeling so strongly. He replied this morning saying that the more time we spend together, the more his feelings grow. Yikes.
This is how I should walk into relationships from the beginning. Not be so absorbed and obsessed in the budding stages, but rather pace myself and let the men come to me. Because then maybe at this point I would feel the same.
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